Hi Friends and Relatives,
I want to thank all of you for all the prayers and
sup****t throughout this ordeal the past two months.
Alas, we did not get a miracle for my dad.
Multisystem Organ Failure is one of those really,
really bad things. He passed away early this
morning. Actually, we turned off the machines last
night when it became apparent that he was suffering.
He didn't want to admit it -- I think he was trying to
hang on for me and my mom. But he's at peace now.
I was worried about how my mom would handle it but
she took it very well. On some level, I think she
already knew. She was very agitated and stressed and
even said something when I got there about "gone and
lost and never see again." When I told her (with
nurses and respiratory therapists present in case
there were problems), she said that knew something bad
had happened. She kept hugging me and patting my
back. I guess she wanted to comfort me...or maybe
that made her feel better. I told she had to get
better and couldn't let this impede her recovery and
she said "Well, I made this far, didn't I? Of course,
I'm going to make it the rest of the way."
I'm okay...or as okay as anyone can be under the
cir***stances. In some ways I feel better than I have
for the last couple weeks, because I've finally
accepted that I couldn't save my dad and I've been
fighting that reality for a while. I guess
intellectually I've known for some days now that he
wasn't going to get better, but my heart just couldn't
accept it. I know that I made the right decision last
night releasing him from his suffering. And I feel
good that my mom handled things well.
Please keep praying for my mom's recovery to
continue going well. And thank you again for all the
sup****t regarding my dad.
Love,
Susan
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